These are some of the many messages I have received from around the world. These are the people who have been touched by Lexi's story.
-Susan Lamoureux, Alexa's Mom
From New Hampshire
I became acquainted with a mom who is suffering from the recent loss of her beautiful daughter, Lexi
I became acquainted with a mom who is suffering from the recent loss of her beautiful daughter, Lexi
Wholeheartedly
-written by Marcy Heath Robitaille on her blog www.agodwink.com
Dec 21, 2017
New Hampshire
A few months ago I became acquainted with a mom who is suffering from the recent loss of her beautiful daughter, Lexi. My daughter Kenzie’s church youth group leader, Lorraine, asked me to connect with this mom who is her dear friend and now grieving the death of her daughter. Lorraine had just mailed her friend a copy of my book “Wish You A Goode Journey”. I wholeheartedly agreed to connect, but asked her to first get permission for me to reach out not knowing if this mom would be open to talking about her loss with a stranger. But things did not quite work out in that sequence. As I was waiting several days to hear back from Lorraine, I read the Lexi's Story that Lorraine had shared on social media.
I decided to just reach out to Susan, who happens to be the mom that Lorraine wanted me to reach out to.
I received this message from Susan a few weeks after we began talking:
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"Hi marcy,
I have the book you wrote about your daughter, Mackenzie on my lap right now. A very dear friend, Loraine, sent it to me last week. I just realized it was you who wrote the book. I've only read a few pages... but stopped when you wrote that your daughter would never be able to walk or talk. I remember that day so well when the doctor showed us Alexa's cat scan. He said Lexi would never again talk, eat, see, or move her limbs. Pure devastation.
I am having a bad day today. Still in bed and haven't answered my phone or messages. Just trying to shut it all out. Both of Lexi's dogs are in bed with me. This is when I feel closest to her.
I am so grateful that you have reached out to me. Thank you for caring so much."
-Susan💗
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I am amazed at this woman and her tenacity. Although she too is experiencing the valleys of grief, she has already recognized her biggest purpose in this tragedy. We have since exchanged many texts back and forth and then I had not heard from her for a week or so until I received this, her text and also
Her Godwink…..
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"Marcy, you wont believe this…or maybe you will: I have a small wicker basket full of papers to organize relating to my daughter, Alexa. I put the basket on my bed just now because for the first time in weeks I thought I might sort through some of it to find things to put on her website. The dogs were on my bed and knocked the basket over. I went to pick up the items that had fallen out and the first thing I went to pick up was the Winter/Spring 2017 REFLECTIONS Newsletter from New England Donor Services. Marcy, Kenzie’s story and pictures were right there in front of me. I looked and thought “Kenzie….” (how do I know Kenzie) and then I read your name underneath ‘Kenzie’s Perfect Day”.
I had to look at it again and again…..Marcy, what does this mean? Why do I have this? Why did I save it? Why is it in with Lexi’s papers? What is God telling me? I am in tears. I want to know what this all means…."
-Susan💗
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I believe wholeheartedly that my Kenzie and Susan’s Lexi have connected in heaven. And that God has weaved the threads of this, His exquisite tapestry by connecting us to share His amazing love and goodness with the world for healing the broken. Susan has recognized her purpose and this will help her through her grief as she focuses on serving others. The magnitude of loss from drug overdose is now inconceivable. We need to stand up with one another in awareness and fight hard for our children. Will you help?
Pay attention to the Godwinks, my friends. They are gems in the treasure hunt of our lives. You could be missing out on the amazing reason for the season in your life.
The season that I am in right now is nothing that I would have chosen nor even contemplated. To be called to nurture and to be a good listener to other moms who have lost a child seems almost contrary to anything that I believed about myself. And yet I feel like God wants to use me to inspire others who are grieving, as they seek to heal from the absolute biggest hurt in their lives.
So my answer to my new friend Susan’s text was this:
So exciting!!! I think God has your attention… time to get busy my friend … He has a divine purpose in all of this.. I promise💜🙏✝️✝️
PLEASE HELP SUSAN BY SHARING LEXI’S STORY……YOU MAY SAVE A LIFE!
From anonymous
Most people just don’t care. They just look down on us and judge us for becoming addicted and treat you like some bum.
Most people just don’t care. They just look down on us and judge us for becoming addicted and treat you like some bum.
Most people just don’t care. They just look down on us and judge us for becoming addicted and treat you like some bum. I’m not your typical street junkie.... I have two bachelors degrees, almost finished my masters degree, I have two jobs (server at restaurant and mental health technician at a kids behavioral rehab center), I come from a good upper-middle class family.... I shouldn’t be a heroin/fentanyl addict. But I am. It can happen to anyone. I’m not the best person, but I’m not a total piece of shit either like people treat me when they find out I’m an addict. Most people have no idea I’m an addict until someone tells them.
I’ve been in and out of the best rehab centers, detox, outpatient etc. I’ve tried suboxone, vivitrol, methadone, all natural holistic remedies, spirituality.... everything. Nothing has worked long term. I don't know what to do anymore.
From Fairfield, Iowa
I read your post about your daughter, and reposted it immediately. I'm so sorry for your loss...
I read your post about your daughter, and reposted it immediately. I'm so sorry for your loss...
I read your post about your daughter, and reposted it immediately. I'm so sorry for your loss... and very grateful for your courage to share the danger of this moment in our time. In my early teens I ended up on the streets of the lower east side of Manhattan among a group of very rough friends. Heroin was every where, and inside of 8 or 9 months I lost 5 of those friends to heroin overdoses. To their credit they made sure that I knew the danger that heroin represented and kept me away from that evil. It took me several years to clean myself up... but I took that wisdom of those dirty streets and stopped exposing myself to any drugs what so ever. I am a little hard edged about it now. I consider weed to be a substantial gateway drug, and most of my friends think that posture is laughable. Especially now that it is legal in some many places. My approach is not to demonize my friends or others who think differently. I just try to remain true to myself, and know that I am vulnerable in this world. My vigilance is all I have... but I want you to know that I hear your story. And it means a lot to me that you have that kind of courage to share it. If nothing else it will remind me, and hopefully others, to remain true to ourselves, and continue to fight this malady with hope and perseverance. Thank you.
Hello Susan,
I read your post about your beautiful daughter. So Sorry for her passing. I need to tell you that you should feel very proud of yourself for sharing your daughters truth and yours as it touched me and I know so many other people. Also, so truthfully making others aware about the stigma attached to heroin. I kiss your hand and hug you. I know from my own past friend and my own my brother and one of my best friend's brother just passed. That's how evil the drug is and how hard it is to stop. I know . That drug I've seen what it can do and has done. Honestly, it takes the best out of people who can be the strongest most beautiful, educated, enthusiastic . Its hell. I've seen it and I know that it takes just one hit and your hooked I've seen it happen. I just wanted you to know and want you to know how brave you are and how much it has helped me and other people you telling your beautiful daughter's truth and know how much it helps what you have done in sharing your own pain and truth.
A beautiful Mum You are.
Hold Tight
Love. X.
I read your post about your beautiful daughter. So Sorry for her passing. I need to tell you that you should feel very proud of yourself for sharing your daughters truth and yours as it touched me and I know so many other people. Also, so truthfully making others aware about the stigma attached to heroin. I kiss your hand and hug you. I know from my own past friend and my own my brother and one of my best friend's brother just passed. That's how evil the drug is and how hard it is to stop. I know . That drug I've seen what it can do and has done. Honestly, it takes the best out of people who can be the strongest most beautiful, educated, enthusiastic . Its hell. I've seen it and I know that it takes just one hit and your hooked I've seen it happen. I just wanted you to know and want you to know how brave you are and how much it has helped me and other people you telling your beautiful daughter's truth and know how much it helps what you have done in sharing your own pain and truth.
A beautiful Mum You are.
Hold Tight
Love. X.
From SUSSEX, eNGLAND
Just want to say how much your story touched us here. Lexi sounds an amazing girl. I work in recovery with heroin addicts.
Just want to say how much your story touched us here. Lexi sounds an amazing girl. I work in recovery with heroin addicts.
Hi Susan
Just want to say how much your story touched us here. Lexi sounds an amazing girl. I work in recovery with heroin addicts. Most of them bright, intelligent, charismatic, vibrant and soulful wonderful people. Sometimes too much so for this life. I'm really sorry to hear of your pain. I hope you can find comfort in your wonderful memories. Rest assured I will be working tirelessly to try and make a difference to help keep young people like your Lexi, safe from the perils of the illness.
Lots of love Susan x
Just want to say how much your story touched us here. Lexi sounds an amazing girl. I work in recovery with heroin addicts. Most of them bright, intelligent, charismatic, vibrant and soulful wonderful people. Sometimes too much so for this life. I'm really sorry to hear of your pain. I hope you can find comfort in your wonderful memories. Rest assured I will be working tirelessly to try and make a difference to help keep young people like your Lexi, safe from the perils of the illness.
Lots of love Susan x
From Seattle, Washington
i came across your daughter’s story, and just wanted to tell you that it really touched me.
i came across your daughter’s story, and just wanted to tell you that it really touched me.
I came across your daughter’s story, and just wanted to tell you that it really touched me. I’ve been addicted to heroin on and off for the last 10 years. Like Alexa, most people would never guess that i was/am a full blown heroin addict. I come from a good family, my parents are still married, i come from money, etc., and STILL i ended up addicted to this demon of a drug. I could really relate to everything you wrote about Alexa. After reading her story, i decided to go back to the methadone clinic and give getting clean another try. I don’t want to put my mom through what you’re going through. I know Lexi would never want you to experience the pain that you are now that she’s gone. Us addicts always feel so guilty for what we put our families through. I’m so sorry you lost your girl. I hate this disease. But I’m going to try again. Please pray that i make it. I’m praying for you too. I can’t imagine what you’re going through. I’m so sorry.
From Bellport, New York
I just wanted to let u know how sorry I am about ur daughter, I lost my son Joey in March of this year I’m having such a hard time with just wanted to let u know I share ur pain.
I just wanted to let u know how sorry I am about ur daughter, I lost my son Joey in March of this year I’m having such a hard time with just wanted to let u know I share ur pain.
Dear Susan,
"I just wanted to let u know how sorry I am about ur daughter, I lost my son in March of this year I’m having such a hard time with just wanted to let u know I share your pain. My son was our adopted son and I loved him so very very much and when he was little he told everyone one he was special cause he was chosen and it was true he was special I ask myself why why god did u take him this drug is the devil it takes our children I wish I had the answer to this terrible problem I wish there was something I could do so we and other mothers don’t have to feel the pain we r going through, people tell me he’s in a better place I say but I want him here with his family know that my prayers are with you. From a mother in pain."
"I just wanted to let u know how sorry I am about ur daughter, I lost my son in March of this year I’m having such a hard time with just wanted to let u know I share your pain. My son was our adopted son and I loved him so very very much and when he was little he told everyone one he was special cause he was chosen and it was true he was special I ask myself why why god did u take him this drug is the devil it takes our children I wish I had the answer to this terrible problem I wish there was something I could do so we and other mothers don’t have to feel the pain we r going through, people tell me he’s in a better place I say but I want him here with his family know that my prayers are with you. From a mother in pain."
FROM NORTH CAROLINA
So sorry for your loss. Your story i can relate to. I'm fighting everyday to help my daughter with this evil addiction.
So sorry for your loss. Your story i can relate to. I'm fighting everyday to help my daughter with this evil addiction.
So sorry for your loss. Your story i can relate to. I'm fighting everyday to help my daughter with this evil addiction. Your daughter reminds me of my daughter so much. Again on so sorry. My heart breaks for you.
Thank you, Cynthia. I pray that your daughter finds her way out of this. It may help her if u sit down with her...share my Lexis story and tell your daughter you understand her feelings of guilt and shame. Tell her today is a new day. If she does something just tell her to just do the next right thing. Tell her, "Don't feel guilt and self hatred. Just pick up and move on from here. She needs to forgive herself, know that you love her unconditionally, and know that you understand. My Lexi and I talked so often about her life. There was deep seeded shame inside her and I didn't realize it was so profound. I have been reading her journals and am heartbroken that she was filled with such immense shame and disgust. She never stole from us for drugs. Not once. It was the "bad things", as she called them, that she did that she put so much emphasis on. I wish she had just shared that part of her with us. Maybe she could have helped her feel a little better. She fought for so long and so hard, too. A few years ago, Alexa met the man she had seen in her dreams. She was off all substances except for something to help her sleep. She seemed to be doing so great...positive, full of life, smiles, and laughter. Something happened on her third visit home this summer from Virginia where she and her boyfriend lived. She made the tortuous decision to use one more time. We found her on her floor at 1030 on Sunday morning. She had no pulse and was not breathing. Her dad got her heart started again. We really thought she was going make it...
God i hurt for you. And I'm going to share your story with my daughter who is 23. She as well keeps journals. Its a very sad and dark place that drug put you in after the 1st use. Its taken so many of our young kids and family members. I'm the only one left in my family that had not given up on my daughter or shamed her or judged her. She is still my daughter and I know what a good heart and person she is . She us and always will be my somebody's someone. She has lost many friends to this drug. I tell her its sad and it could and will be you if you keep using. I just pray a lot that God will give her the strength and mind set to keep off of it. But she relapses a lot. Has even died over 10 times from overdose but Narcan always saved her life; and Gods hand. It kills me to see how she is today compared to how she was. Us parents need to stand together and keep fighting to make everyone aware of this evil addiction. And to tell people that its an addiction and our love ones are still people; good people . My prayers go out to you and your family. We tried rehabs as well; never worked. Hard to find a rehab that is really good and that doesn't just care about the $. But she gets herself clean and does good then something will set her off and she goes right back.
Yes, I will always be right there for her always.
Thank you, Cynthia. I pray that your daughter finds her way out of this. It may help her if u sit down with her...share my Lexis story and tell your daughter you understand her feelings of guilt and shame. Tell her today is a new day. If she does something just tell her to just do the next right thing. Tell her, "Don't feel guilt and self hatred. Just pick up and move on from here. She needs to forgive herself, know that you love her unconditionally, and know that you understand. My Lexi and I talked so often about her life. There was deep seeded shame inside her and I didn't realize it was so profound. I have been reading her journals and am heartbroken that she was filled with such immense shame and disgust. She never stole from us for drugs. Not once. It was the "bad things", as she called them, that she did that she put so much emphasis on. I wish she had just shared that part of her with us. Maybe she could have helped her feel a little better. She fought for so long and so hard, too. A few years ago, Alexa met the man she had seen in her dreams. She was off all substances except for something to help her sleep. She seemed to be doing so great...positive, full of life, smiles, and laughter. Something happened on her third visit home this summer from Virginia where she and her boyfriend lived. She made the tortuous decision to use one more time. We found her on her floor at 1030 on Sunday morning. She had no pulse and was not breathing. Her dad got her heart started again. We really thought she was going make it...
God i hurt for you. And I'm going to share your story with my daughter who is 23. She as well keeps journals. Its a very sad and dark place that drug put you in after the 1st use. Its taken so many of our young kids and family members. I'm the only one left in my family that had not given up on my daughter or shamed her or judged her. She is still my daughter and I know what a good heart and person she is . She us and always will be my somebody's someone. She has lost many friends to this drug. I tell her its sad and it could and will be you if you keep using. I just pray a lot that God will give her the strength and mind set to keep off of it. But she relapses a lot. Has even died over 10 times from overdose but Narcan always saved her life; and Gods hand. It kills me to see how she is today compared to how she was. Us parents need to stand together and keep fighting to make everyone aware of this evil addiction. And to tell people that its an addiction and our love ones are still people; good people . My prayers go out to you and your family. We tried rehabs as well; never worked. Hard to find a rehab that is really good and that doesn't just care about the $. But she gets herself clean and does good then something will set her off and she goes right back.
Yes, I will always be right there for her always.
From Swanton, Ohio
I read the tragic story this evening of your gorgeous daughter. Drugs are in every neighborhood and street everywhere, my heart breaks for you. I sit here with tears running down my cheeks.
I read the tragic story this evening of your gorgeous daughter. Drugs are in every neighborhood and street everywhere, my heart breaks for you. I sit here with tears running down my cheeks.
Hi Susan,
“I read the tragic story this evening of your gorgeous daughter. Drugs are in every neighborhood and street everywhere, my heart breaks for you. I sit here with tears running down my cheeks. Our son, so lovable, humorous, caring, oh I could go on. He tried and worked so hard to change his life, he always said, why, why can't I do this why do I fail, heroin just takes over lives completely. We lost my son also, only my sweet boy took his life July 1st,17, only 4 months after I lost my Mom, I needed her so badly to help me through. My solace is my parents were there to meet him and hold him. His demons took over, he no longer wanted to live that life. We always thought it could be an overdose, never expected a suicide, the picture that leaves in my head makes me ill every day, it’s all heroin and just plain drugs. We are so very sorry for your loss. Bless you Momma."
“I read the tragic story this evening of your gorgeous daughter. Drugs are in every neighborhood and street everywhere, my heart breaks for you. I sit here with tears running down my cheeks. Our son, so lovable, humorous, caring, oh I could go on. He tried and worked so hard to change his life, he always said, why, why can't I do this why do I fail, heroin just takes over lives completely. We lost my son also, only my sweet boy took his life July 1st,17, only 4 months after I lost my Mom, I needed her so badly to help me through. My solace is my parents were there to meet him and hold him. His demons took over, he no longer wanted to live that life. We always thought it could be an overdose, never expected a suicide, the picture that leaves in my head makes me ill every day, it’s all heroin and just plain drugs. We are so very sorry for your loss. Bless you Momma."
From Americus, Georgia
Seen your story on fb and cant truly know what you are going through but can relate. I lost my younger brother to the same thing and my kids mother got hooked on the same thing and left us
Seen your story on fb and cant truly know what you are going through but can relate. I lost my younger brother to the same thing and my kids mother got hooked on the same thing and left us
'“Seen your story on fb and cant truly know what you are going through but can relate. I lost my younger brother to the same thing and my kids mother got hooked on the same thing and left us. That along with meth,ice and all other opiates have destroyed a lot of families. I'm sorry for your loss ,praying for you.
Thank you....and i am so sorry for your loss. It kills. People need to understand that. It ruins lives from the first use..."
Thank you....and i am so sorry for your loss. It kills. People need to understand that. It ruins lives from the first use..."
"In my thoughts and prayers, with deepest sympathy. I do not like the word heroin. I have a troubled son using I'm sure he's in denial and this breaks my heart I can't get through to him to stop.Praying for you Susan and family.God Bless you all. <3"
From Pueblo, colorado
Your daughter is beautiful I am sorry that the devil won I know her battle all too well..
Your daughter is beautiful I am sorry that the devil won I know her battle all too well..
"Your daughter is beautiful I am sorry that the devil won I know her battle all too well.. I have had seven years clean and sober at this point but I live everyday knowing at any moment it could be the last at any moment the devil could take over again I played it off the best I can I hope that she has found a piece that she could not find here on Earth my sister passed away last year from an overdose at age 27 my step brother died from an overdose my kids grandfather died from an overdose and daddy died directly due to the impact of drugs on his body please no that your story inspired she has not died in vain I heard her today and today I will stay clean for her name."
From maine
Hello old friend. I just want to tell you that I'm thinking of you everyday. I'm sooo sorry that you are going through this
Hello old friend. I just want to tell you that I'm thinking of you everyday. I'm sooo sorry that you are going through this
"Hello old friend. I just want to tell you that I'm thinking of you everyday. I'm sooo sorry that you are going through this. Your daughter looked sooo much like you when you were that age. The only thing I can compare it to was losing my brother. That too was earth shattering and made my life stand still. It was also caused from drugs as well. All I can think of is the prayer - "Foot Prints in the Sand".
'A man had a dream that he was walking along the beach with the lord. He noticed that in the sky were scenes from his life and during the most difficult times of his life there was only 1 set of footprints. When he asked the Lord, why do I only see one set of footprints during the lowest time of my life when I needed you the most? The Lord replied, I love you very much and I never left you. When you only see one set of foot prints it was then that I carried you.'
You were robbed a long life with Alexa and have every reason to be angry and sad but you can also make Alexa's time here on earth continue to work and save thousands of peoples lives. You are an intelligent, loving, compassionate person that might be exactly what this world needs to put a dent in this horrible epidemic that is going on.
What you wrote was AMAZING but more importantly it was POWERFUL!!! You did such a great job educating people that this problem is NOT something that happens only to people who come from bad families or families with little support. Putting Alexa's face to this epidemic for you will keep her alive and allow you both to help people suffering from this miserable dark web of misery. "
'A man had a dream that he was walking along the beach with the lord. He noticed that in the sky were scenes from his life and during the most difficult times of his life there was only 1 set of footprints. When he asked the Lord, why do I only see one set of footprints during the lowest time of my life when I needed you the most? The Lord replied, I love you very much and I never left you. When you only see one set of foot prints it was then that I carried you.'
You were robbed a long life with Alexa and have every reason to be angry and sad but you can also make Alexa's time here on earth continue to work and save thousands of peoples lives. You are an intelligent, loving, compassionate person that might be exactly what this world needs to put a dent in this horrible epidemic that is going on.
What you wrote was AMAZING but more importantly it was POWERFUL!!! You did such a great job educating people that this problem is NOT something that happens only to people who come from bad families or families with little support. Putting Alexa's face to this epidemic for you will keep her alive and allow you both to help people suffering from this miserable dark web of misery. "
From unkown
One of our families saw a Facebook posts of yours and referred it to me. I am so sorry to hear about your daughter, Alexa.
One of our families saw a Facebook posts of yours and referred it to me. I am so sorry to hear about your daughter, Alexa.
"Hi Susan,
One of our families saw a Facebook posts of yours and referred it to me. I am so sorry to hear about your daughter, Alexa.
I work for the Addiction Policy Forum, a non-profit based in Washington, DC. Our works involves elevating awareness, education, and advocacy around substance use disorders and addiction. We work with a lot of individuals and families who want to do more in their own communities by providing them the tools and resources they need to better educate others, elevate awareness and improve the nations response to addiction.
I wanted to see if you need any kind of support or connection to resources? I would love to help out anyway I can.
Here is our website if you would like to learn more: http://www.addictionpolicy.org/"
One of our families saw a Facebook posts of yours and referred it to me. I am so sorry to hear about your daughter, Alexa.
I work for the Addiction Policy Forum, a non-profit based in Washington, DC. Our works involves elevating awareness, education, and advocacy around substance use disorders and addiction. We work with a lot of individuals and families who want to do more in their own communities by providing them the tools and resources they need to better educate others, elevate awareness and improve the nations response to addiction.
I wanted to see if you need any kind of support or connection to resources? I would love to help out anyway I can.
Here is our website if you would like to learn more: http://www.addictionpolicy.org/"
From Athens, greece
Thank you ma'am for accepting my friend's request. I am a Greek sociologist, father of a 14 year old son, living in Athens, Greece.
Thank you ma'am for accepting my friend's request. I am a Greek sociologist, father of a 14 year old son, living in Athens, Greece.
"Thank you ma'am for accepting my friend's request. I am a Greek sociologist, father of a 14 year old son, living in Athens, Greece. I dream of becoming a freedom fighter, educating the youth on the truth about drugs. Every good person we lose to drugs hurts me like I've lost one of my own people. Actually, all good souls are MY people."
"Dear Susan and Chris, I just wanted to say hi from Greece again. I am thinking about your family. Every Sunday afternoon me and some volunteer friends distribute many hundreds of "The Truth about Drugs" booklets (the ones that you see in drugfreeworld.org) into the hands of the public in downtown Athens. This Sunday, and all the Sundays that will follow, I will be thinking of your family and Lexi. I am shattered by your loss and I really have no way to truly and deeply comprehend what it feels like to lose your own beloved daughter. But I promise to do something about it and resurge my cause and multiply my efforts to educate the public about the terrible consequences of drugs. This Sunday afternoon under the Acropolis of Athens will be dedicated to Lexi. All my love."
"Dear Susan and Chris, I just wanted to say hi from Greece again. I am thinking about your family. Every Sunday afternoon me and some volunteer friends distribute many hundreds of "The Truth about Drugs" booklets (the ones that you see in drugfreeworld.org) into the hands of the public in downtown Athens. This Sunday, and all the Sundays that will follow, I will be thinking of your family and Lexi. I am shattered by your loss and I really have no way to truly and deeply comprehend what it feels like to lose your own beloved daughter. But I promise to do something about it and resurge my cause and multiply my efforts to educate the public about the terrible consequences of drugs. This Sunday afternoon under the Acropolis of Athens will be dedicated to Lexi. All my love."
" ️I was just looking at the post that I shared of yours about your beautiful daughter. I saw that so many people are commenting and a few have shared their own story. I also saw that 60 something people shared your story from just my post of your story. Keep doing what you are doing. You are helping so many. Thank you for accepting my friend request and sharing your story about your beautiful daughter Lexi. ️
My brother has been on and off heroin. Thank you for spreading awareness. ️"
My brother has been on and off heroin. Thank you for spreading awareness. ️"
From Middleton, Connecticut
I read your story and wanted to offer my sincerest condolences on your loss
I read your story and wanted to offer my sincerest condolences on your loss
"I read your story and wanted to offer my sincerest condolences on your loss, the story you shared I also shared hoping if we can touch one person with this tragedy my heart is broken for you and all your family. RIP Alexa you have no more demons and are with our heavenly Father. I believe Jesus gives us our children to Love and calls them home when they are lost in this drug world of demons...God bless you and keep you in his care! You will now be her guiding Angel to cherish her memories, reach out to support groups and know you were the best Mom in the world for all you tried to do but God wanted her Home.."
From Limerick, Ireland
I am an Irish police officer involved in drug enforcement in Limerick, Ireland.
I am an Irish police officer involved in drug enforcement in Limerick, Ireland.
"Dear Susan,
I am an Irish police officer involved in drug enforcement in Limerick, Ireland. I saw your post on facebook about your daughter Alexa. I am sorry for your tragic loss.
With your permission, I was hoping to use her photo and your words in our drugs presentations to young persons in Limerick. We target secondary schools and groups of young persons. The presentations focus on educating young persons about the danger of drug use.
We have a problem with heroin here, and your experience is very moving.
I am an Irish police officer involved in drug enforcement in Limerick, Ireland. I saw your post on facebook about your daughter Alexa. I am sorry for your tragic loss.
With your permission, I was hoping to use her photo and your words in our drugs presentations to young persons in Limerick. We target secondary schools and groups of young persons. The presentations focus on educating young persons about the danger of drug use.
We have a problem with heroin here, and your experience is very moving.
From Evansville, Indiana
Just in the past two years we have seen a huge increase of drug over doses directly linked to fentanyl in our county.
Just in the past two years we have seen a huge increase of drug over doses directly linked to fentanyl in our county.
"Just in the past two years we have seen a huge increase of drug over doses directly linked to fentanyl in our county. This past February with the help of our local coroner the were able to pass a law if it could be proven where the drug came from that individual would be charged with homicide. There have been over 80 deaths year to date here. Tripled from last year. My brother was at a level 14 of fentanyl in his system. The highest the coroner has seen yet. He passed away the moment it entered his body. This drug is not just cut into heroin and that's what I want to get out to our community. It's been found in marijuana and even in these "moon shine" drinks. It's very scary and I don't think my community is doing a very good job of educating on how bad this has become."
"Your daughter Lexi was truly breathtaking and obviously so very special. I read her story today as it came across my newsfeed and just wanted to drop you a comment to let you know how many people she's reaching. I'm a person in recovery (not from heroin) but I've lost people to this drug and to this disease and it's got to stop. Especially the heroin. You're right. It's everywhere and it's so accessible to young people. It makes me angry to see your daughter taken from you just like it does to see my friends taken from me b/c they deserve better and they are worth so much more. My heart just hurts for you but you are doing the best thing you can for Alexa by making her story be heard and by breaking the stigma associated with heroin addiction. I'm hugely sorry for your loss. Words don't suffice. Sending prayers of compassion and support from Baton Rouge, Louisiana."
From Palm Beach, Florida
I think this is beautifully written and should be read by everyone. So sorry for your loss.
I think this is beautifully written and should be read by everyone. So sorry for your loss.
"I think this is beautifully written and should be read by everyone. So sorry for your loss. I'd also like to say that a lot of children in the past and today experiment with drugs...to obtain a state of mind, altered and perceived better than the current one. High school and younger children are even experimenting with marijuana. Parents are condoning it in numerous states and justify its use that it's safer than alcohol. People need to teach their children that their current state of mind is just perfect. No need to alter it. Even marijuana is not "OKAY". Alcohol is not okay...it should be with minimal use if at all. That one drug used leads to another. Nothing good comes of any drug use. Let's teach our children that the current stage of mind is great and most powerful for education, music, sex, everything...and all the rest exploits your money, steals from your mind, could cause death and can be laced with poison."
From Emerald, Ireland
I'm reading your latest post about your gorgeous daughter here in Ireland and have been reduced to tears.
I'm reading your latest post about your gorgeous daughter here in Ireland and have been reduced to tears.
"I'm reading your latest post about your gorgeous daughter here in Ireland and have been reduced to tears. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you have a peaceful 2018. Stay strong. Lots of love from the Emerald Isle xxx "
From MAINE
These are the things I have been trying, very clumsily, to say to you. 24 years after my fathers death, there is still no resolution, only absorption.
These are the things I have been trying, very clumsily, to say to you. 24 years after my fathers death, there is still no resolution, only absorption.
"Susan,
These are the things I have been trying, very clumsily, to say to you. 24 years after my fathers death, there is still no resolution, only absorption. And possibly the decision to keep going because there's no other solution at this point. There might also be a sprinkle of acceptance on good days, but always the loss remains. I think that you are handling this with much grace, even on the unbearable days, which is probably every day at this point. I love that your first thought is how can you help others through love, Lexi. It amazes me that you have been able to claim this right and move forward with it. You are so much braver than I. Keep your head up, and know that you are loved and supported.
-Kathi"
These are the things I have been trying, very clumsily, to say to you. 24 years after my fathers death, there is still no resolution, only absorption. And possibly the decision to keep going because there's no other solution at this point. There might also be a sprinkle of acceptance on good days, but always the loss remains. I think that you are handling this with much grace, even on the unbearable days, which is probably every day at this point. I love that your first thought is how can you help others through love, Lexi. It amazes me that you have been able to claim this right and move forward with it. You are so much braver than I. Keep your head up, and know that you are loved and supported.
-Kathi"
